My uncles wife texted me a two days ago, asking what plans I had for the weekend. I told her I had to do this exam paper, because it’s really important (especially since I do not get credit for my papers and stuff in school any longer - my diploma will only contain my exam points). Then she started texting me crying smileys and that she missed me soooo much and stuff… And at this point I am really not in any mood of being with her, because I am pretty mad at her because she doesn’t get that not everyone want’s to end up like her and her children, with no education and no job… Ofcourse it’s not her fault that she cannot get a normal job because she has problems with her back and such, but … SERIOUSLY I get mad, because I have to take this really serious! I ALMOST got kicked all out of school!! And she just doesn’t get that I HAVE to get that stupid diploma! Not because I actually need it for my education as a photographer, but because I want to proof for myself that I can do it - that I CAN be a normal person and do stuff like normal people! It has nothing to do with anything or anybody else, this is all for me - this is my “selfish project”!
Anyways, I just texted her back that I missed her too, but I seriously did not have time for anything at this point. I’ve decided to celebrate my birthday next weekend, and if she says ANYTHING about it and that she is not invited I just ignore it, because she has to understand that I also have my friends - that she is not the only person in my life - and I really want to see them also and celebrate my birthday with them! In a half year school ends, and then … who knows how many of my friends I’ll ever see again? I want to spend time with them! My family will always be there, I know that, and its not that I don’t want to spend time with them - I LOVE spending time with them! But my friends really means a lot to me also, and if it weren’t because of some of them were such good people, I would probably not be where I am right now. I would not be who I am if it weren’t because of them.
In all this school problems I’ve had, I’ve really needed my friends, and they’ve really supported me and helped as much as they could! And that’s why I want to be with them, and celebrate my birthday with them too. She just has to understand that they mean just as much in my life as my family.
I’m just really angry at her right now …
Now I’ll go back to my paper about serial killers :3